A Lesson from Jesus

Something God kinda showed me today. I also posted it on facebook:

I was reading today in John and I found something intresting in John Chapter 11, the story about Lazarus:

33When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. 34"Where have you laid him?" he asked.
      "Come and see, Lord," they replied.

 35Jesus wept.

 36Then the Jews said, "See how he loved him!"

Now Jesus clearly knew that he was going to bring Lazarus back to life, So why was he so sad?

11After he had said this, he went on to tell them, "Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up."

23Jesus said to her, "Your brother will rise again."

So It seems to me that it wasn't so much that lazarus was dead that he was sad. He clearly knew that he would soon be living again. I believe it was because he saw the people that he loved were sad and hurting. It's a reminder for us both that God cares about us, Our hurt, our pain, our Joy and our feelings, and the type of relationships we should have with others. Real love entails more then whats happening on the outside of a person, but also whats happining on whats within, and God cares about both.

All abord the xanga train!

Yeah thats right it's posting time......

So things that top the day:

Exploring a small cave/tunnel, yes i can say i went spelunking, and yes we wrote on the cave wall with chalk

Jumping into a aproximatly 60 degree pool

Eating pizza, pizza logs, Frys and watching Die Hard 2

I like being home everyonce and a while. It's like leaving one world and entering another. Also I dont feel as cramped here. I guess i'm just used to wide open spaces (It makes it easyer to pace).

Also I have set two kinda adventurous goals this summer. I call them the X projects, because it sounds cool. They should be kinda fun things to work on and it gets my mind off some other things.

Also this weekend went by kinda fast.

thats all, peace out.

Why is it i feel stressed everytime i get on face book, and why is it i feel more relaxed on xanga, and more importantly why am I writing this?

Answer: 1 hour till class and I am in the lab.

But because you all are subscribeed to this, I can write something in hopes that it will entertain a few of you. Sure you wont read this on your free time, but thoughs of you with a little extra time here and there will. Like maybe one of you are going to read this next lunch break at work, and then like 5 min later you'll be like i just wasted 5 minutes.

In all seriousness though, things have been going pretty well the last few days. It's refreshing to hear some good news everyonce and a while. Also things in my life are coming together, all proof that God has a plan, and will take care of us.

Okay so here's what i posted on facebook. I figured I wont go into big detail in such a public domain as facebook, but heres okay....

So at 11 55 pm I turned in my colony manor keys. The entire apartment is now fully emptied out. It's a weird     feeling....I hope things will settle down soon.

I would like to thank Mike, Brain, Deb, and Sarah for all the help you guys gave in the move out process, I dont think you guys realize what a huge help it was, especially how things have been going lately.

So Im wet, tired, my back hurts, my rooms a mess, I dont have things planned out yet, but at least one things taken care of.

A more extended version will be posted on xanga for thoughs who would like to read more.

 And because this is xanga I shall continue......

It's weird to think about all the stuff im going through right now. Please dont take this the wrong way because although things are a little rough, I am very blessed and there are tons of people in far worse situations then me, but I shall still continue on anyways...

Normally when im faced with battles it's a single frount battle meaning it's one big problem that I am facing at a time wether its a job, project, class, friend, or emotional stuff, such as being rejected by a girl or something. in these situations I usually can draw off of other aspects of my personality to pull through ( not to mention Prayer). For example i'll use the crazy side of me to excape the worries of a project or something. It's werid this time because i feel like im fighting battles on every frount, not to mention the comand part of my mind just got missled. I really dont know why this whole no coop thing shook me up so bad. I mean really a slight delay isnt that big of deal. But maybe it goes deeper or soemthing, i dont really understand it myself.

One thing I think God is teaching me through all this is trust. I found myself quoting to myself a phrase which iv'e told several others. It's along the lines of this: "what is real faith and real trust in God? Real faith shines when we've got things on the line, when we have something to loose, when it's not in our control, and we dont have all these fail safes in place. It's easy to pray for help on a test you've studied for for 10 hours when you knbow you've got your bases covered. This isnt to say God wont help you (and believe me God has helped me numerous times on tests). What im saying is when things are really on the line, thats where real faith comes in, real trust. It's spmething I need to do better. There are certain aspectsof my life i need to let God take the wheel for. It's hard sometimes letting God drive when you dont know where your going or if you want to be there. I guess I need to take my own advice.

So thats kinda where i'm at. I really dont know what the future or even tommarow brings. I need to trust in God that he will take care of me, and i need to stop trying to pretend like i know whats up or whats best. I need to Trust.

So sorry for such a long post. keep in mind it's been a long and tiring day so there are probably tons of spelling and gramatical mistakes in the previous text.